Holy F***ing Shit This Blog Is Dead

Yup. Holy F***ing shit. I can't even bring myself to care, with all the stuff happening in my life now... I'm just lazy. XD

Adam Laaambeerrt!!!!

Yaarh, I met Akiko/Monica today at Tropicana City Mall...She's awesomee.... >.< I love her drawing and her handwriting. So pretty... Lol and her hair oh my gods her hair. It's so long. And to me it looks well maintained~

My finger's infected...I shouldn't bite my fingers so much anymore lol. I am thoroughly freaked by Jennifer's Body and Final Destination 4. The whole time I was going 'oh nasty...' and stuff like that... It's sick and gory and gross but I stuck with the movies till the end cause it was kinda fun lol. So that means I'm sick and gory and gross too~ ^^

But who cares about that...I'm super high and bouncing 'cause CF is less than a week away! And after that is Christmas... I hope I get something nice or enough money to buy Adam Lambert's CD... Lol. Hope I'll play Yuffie properly...Lol a Starbucks Frappucino or three of them should do the trick.

^^ Anyway, Adam Lambert's vocals seem a bit harsh sometimes but really, when he screams it's like having an orgasm. =.= Not a very nice way to put it but it's the only way. *swoon* Fangirl love... And he's just so damn perfect. I don't mind. Just looking and watching and swonning randomly is enough for meh.

As I'm watching the guy himself on 8tv's broadcast of Season 8...Country week lol. He's singing Ring of Fire and I suddenly realise he's da bomb. ^^

Lol. Just broke up... And CF's gonna be awkward even when I'm so hyper about it. But I'll take Akiko's advice to 'ninja ninja around' and avoid those I don't wanna see. It's a big place anyway.

So, ne, I'm ditching you guys for methodic work to cope~

Ja!

Hyperness

Lol. Yay contact lenses…It really is the weirdest thing to stick things into your eyes and be able to see clearly… Nevertheless I’m getting better at wearing them. ^^ Acuvue Moist dailies are so comfortable! >.< Now I sound like a salesperson. =.=

Anyway I gave up on making my shuriken…I’ll just borrow Jane’s cause it’s kinda difficult to make it when you’re strapped on time, money and mental health. Heh. You could say I’m pushing myself too much because I’m practically trying to study 9 subjects day…Because I was working for three days organizing my mother’s insurance documents, I’m pretty far behind on the notes. I pray with all my heart that I can manage to catch up…Lol.

Comic Fiesta is around the corner~ Prepare for a gushing newbie… I’m so goddamn excited! It’s my first, and I’ve heard that it’s the size of MidValley’s Convention Hall 3… But damn if I’m not high right now…Hyperness.

And I’m high from studying I think. Very high. ^^

Ja!

Jane's Birthday

Yahoo! I'm at her place, bullying her dog and molesting her piano. Bwahahahahaha... >.<

Anyway, it's so nice to be able to hang out at a friend's place, especially a fellow cosplayer's. There's, like a nice sense of camaraderie and siblinghood... Conventions feel the same. We're commenting on each others' costumes, making friends and camwhoring...in general hanging out. It's the most wonderful thing ever. Really. ^^ And we can all laugh at ourselves like during Project Shiva, where cosplayers and pretty much everyone in particular can freeze for three minutes excluding breathing. Reno-pyuu got molested (hugged la, perverts) during one of them. ^^ Poor guy.

Ja!

WAHOOOOO!!!!

Eheh. I know with my lack of updates I must seem like a bipolar goose flying high. ^^ But honestly who gives a damn?

Aargh, I read Jian's blog... >.< I wish I could be emo and wax poetic like him sometimes. *swoon* Happy birthday, ne? ^^ Your tarot cards are coming up once I get to go out+drag you to Kinokuniya again.

Anyway, I just got my biopsy results for that cyst/lump in my neck. I am safe! Yay...No more scary injections. Lost? Hahaha...I'll tell you the story. A few weeks ago, my dad and a couple classmates noticed a had a lump in my neck below my voice box. They thought it was thyroiditis... So on Monday I went to the ENT specialist for a check...had my first ever ultrasound scan. So turns out I have three cysts in my thyroid gland. One big and two small... On Wednesday I went to SJMC to see yet another ENT specialist, and he suggested we drain the cyst. On that day. I was speechless...then after that we went into a white room with a bed and I was made to lie on that bed...He stuck a needle into my neck. No anaesthetic. No local, no general anaesthetic and no painkillers either. I was so freaked I cried, and he even had to squeeze the stupid cyst to get more fluid out for the biopsy. =.= Before you laugh, it's not funny. At all. But thank goodness the fluid was harmless, like saliva or something. I know, you've probably lost your appetite for the rest of the week. ^^ Yay!

Oh, and I watched 2012... It was phenomenal. Seriously. I cried three times, I laughed around ten, and even with an extremely full bladder halfway through I just ignored it and watched the suspenseful movie. Really 22 bucks well spent on two tickets for me and my mum cause movies aren't nice to watch alone. Unless it's porn.

School holidays are here and tomorrow ish Jane's birthday!!! A bag of Chupachups for her, since she specially requested them~ Tomorrow get to go to her house from 9 to 5 and molest everything in it...

Yesterday was Damien and I's six month anniversary... Lol even though I didn't get to see him, I'm still happy. ^^ Dunno why.

Anyway, this is a load of bull, and tomorrow when I get to Jane's computer I"m going to give you more bull!!! I'm so high now I'm practically floating.

Ja!

Confused

I don't really know what's going on anymore. My parents...I'm just really scared they will feel lonely when I grow up and have to leave. Sometime I dislike having my parents divorced, but when I think of it actually it's better this way.

It's all just confusing, lol. Maybe I'll work it out. Sooner or later.

On a brighter note, I got 72 for my moral final exam...I hope my other marks are good. Yes this mark was good but I know it could have been better. No point dwelling on it...When life gives you lemons make lemonade I guess. Or ice lemon tea.

Anyway. I think I'm gonna join orchestra in January... Going to my school counsellor to discuss my goals for high school. ^^ I hope it'll help.

Well, life has its ups and downs...Not much point moaning, groaning and refusing to let go. Yes my dad may be having some trouble, and I wish I could help him but he has Auntie Anita to confide in so I guess it's okay. At least he has someone. I'd rather he have someone because now that our tenants have moved out he's all alone in the house when I'm at mum's...I know how loneliness feels, and frankly it's terrifying. I don't want to have my dad go through that. Neither do I want my mum to go through that too. It's just a bit tougher cause I have to take care of both parent's feelings. But I'll manage! I promised a lot of people I would. So I will. But sometimes I have to raise a white flag, so bear with me when I do alright?

I'm sorry this post is depressing... I wish it could have been the other way around but I guess there's no helping it.

Wish me luck for the rest of my finals, and pray I make it through.

Ja!

Back to School

=.= Only Monday and Wednesday were school days for the past week. I think I'm suffering from schooling withdrawal symptoms. 0w0" Cripes, I must be going crazy. Well, finals are in ten days and I'm hopping around like a bunny high on Viagra or something... And anyway, I'm gonna study 6 hours a day. Not including tuition and school. Crazy, right? I'm turning into a robot. Or so Mamoru says. ^^ Yay! But since there are twelve subjects (English, BM, Chinese, Math, Science, Geography, History, PJK, Civic, Moral, Art and KH) of which I am not studying English and BM because there's no friggin' point, I am alternating between a set of subjects and another set of subjects. Effective I guess lol...I really shouldn't have left everything to the last minute. =.=

Anyway, I gotta go, and I'm sorry for leaving you with a short post today...

Ja!

Essence

My god, loads of my friends must be jumping seeing as it's PMR season... Lol. Exams, finals, SPM... All coming round to wreak havoc only I can dream of creating.

I sneezed so many times yesterday...I think it was like 25 times. -.- I honestly think I'm gonna fall sick. Or is it that the residues of the dust storm at Sydney have come here?

It's so confusing ne, how people think...it's really intriguing. I mean, what other animal has such cruelty in them? The complications, everything... Life is so short but it seems so long at times. Seriously la...I get amused by the things that come out of my mouth at times. Yay I'm vulgar and crude...

Stanleigh's new name is Jenkins Stanleigh~ Lol. New name, new life. ^^ Congratz Stan!!!

Ugh...two monthly tests on Thursday...History and Geography. Lol. I'm gonna die~ Who decided to do that anyway? Studying one is bad enough, but two? =.= I really have to get high on Oreos to do that.

And not to mention that my piano teacher is requesting that I get a real piano... >.< I'm poor, so in the meantime I'm gonna practise in my digital, stay back at piano to use the awesome Wagner there and perhaps ask my friend for help...

My church is requesting that I re-join orchestra...Should I? I have karate on Sunday mornings...if I join i have to go for practice on Sunday afternoon. Hmm...I feel bad because my dad doesn't really get to see me that often... And anyway I think I'll die from exhaustion. *sigh* I don't know...maybe I'll alternate weeks then. *sob*

I have just discovered a love for the arts~ Music, writing, art, martial arts, sewing, cross stitch, cooking, baking... Yes I know cross stitching is so grandma, but it's like meditating~ Lol. =.= I'm sad I don't really have the time for all that though. Even the art of politics and strategizing is fun~

Okay, I'll stop crapping and wasting your time... Ja!

Rotting At Home

=.= I really am a moron.

You wouldn't believe how furious I was, lol... My stupid transporter has the gall to come late, then come early and demand that I get off the car if I don't like it, then come even later by an hour... Then after I've walked home and called the stupid idiot of a boss, that stupid idiot of a boss threatens to tell my whole school how bad I am, just because I gave that very late transporter employee the finger. Would you even believe that she freaking cried? My god... There isn't much point telling the whole school anyway. They already know how bad I am. -.-" Really though, she called me up and threatened me...When I told her I was passing the phone to my dad she hung up. Yeah, I'm very nice to bully... Wait and see.

But it was okay la... My dad met D on Sunday.... It was so darned awkward and I wanted to kill myself on the spot. =.=

Well, school is back on Monday... All the same anyway. I'm suffering from carpal tunnel syndrome as a result of playng too much gameboy... Yes I know I'm outdated. But I'm poor... Lol.

I joined a band with Taka, Jane and Izzy...until CF decided not to have bands. And now Jane can't commit as usual... =.= What la... Irresponsible kid. But lol, Taka asked me to write a song...I'm, like WTFH... How the hell am I supposed to do that?

Then after that my piano teacher gave me the prolonged version of Jay Chou's Secret... >.< I'm supposed to play it at 128 beats per minute and I'm playing at 34... Even then, I make mistakes. Holy hell, Jay Chou really is one of a kind. Like I don't have enough on my plate already playing a couple of songs from Yiruma and composing for Taka. =.=

I'll just rot at home la... It's not like I have anything else to do. Life is complicated, interesting, boring... It's amazing how versatile it is. ^^

Oh, and happy raya! I know it's a bit late, but who cares? It's the thought that counts... And happy mooncake festival to all them people who celebrate it~ Raya and Mooncake Festival almost back to back is feeding me sweet stuff like a sugarholic, lol... I'm gonna be fat then. Christ, I don't even fit my miniskirts properly anymore... Really gotta go for more karate. Haiz.

Ja!

School Is Really Fun

I never really knew how fun school could be...I mean, some people are just so darn easy so manipulate. I'm glad I don't manipulate my friends though. Just my enemies. ^^

Well, it's that time of the month again....and monthly tests are back. And on the 20th of October, it's the finals...I really have to study for them, cause I have a few peopleI wanna defeat academically. Lol, at this rate even my dad is going to call me a bitch...I know for once that my mum already does.

I got my costume back~ I'm so happy. The hoodie looks a little wrong because the body is black instead of grey, but there isn't really much point complaining...It's really good quality, lol... So instead of getting scammed I got a really good quality costume the will last me ages. Until I wanna sell it. But I don't think I will...It's so nice and it's my first costume, anyway. I have to keep slim, though...the shorts are kinda tight around my ass. I guess the guys at Comic Fiesta will get a free show? -.-

Well, my dad found out about D... He wants to meet him. DX I'm gonna die at this rate... But D is kinda well qualified...I mean, who wouldn't like a guy who's nice and studies? Lol...he said the other day that he's studying just for me. ^^ I'm so flattered. I hope dad like him...If not then I have to get nasty.

Tomorrow we in Selangor are going back to school~ I'm gonna have fun manipulating a certain bitch/wannabe/brown noser/bimbo... I mean, what kind of moron show everyone her book of tactics? In a war you can't afford to be that stupid, dear...I just hope you understand how really idiotic you are.

Well, I gotta go...Study time! ^^ Have fun, guys...it's going to be the end of the year~